A Stabbing For Sadie
A sometimes terrifying, often intriguing, and always thought provoking glimpse into the mind of Sadie, a victim of child abuse, drugs, and the vagaries of fate as she sinks into mental illness and battles her own special kind of demons. A Stabbing for Sadie is a wonderful journey through the twisted mind of a casualty of abuse, who lives with her own monsters, and fights to survive every day. It delves into notions and nightmares that haunt this strong and sometimes funny woman as she copes with false accusations and true horrors. This is a riveting, edge of your seat thriller as told from the other side. A Stabbing for Sadie will leave you breathless…wondering what you would do…and wondering what’s on the mind of the person standing next to you…
Reviews for A Stabbing For Sadie
“A Stabbing for Sadie is one of the more innovative books in its genre to come out in a long while. This breaks the formula and offers you a truly unique and riveting story.”
– Lorne Cook, Author “Lorneisms”
“A Stabbing for Sadie is the story of a young woman struggling to live her life despite the persistent echoes of a childhood of abuse and neglect. The first-person perspective gives Sadie’s rational but naive (and often paranoid) outlook on her life, and forces the reader to infer what aspects of her experiences she’s hiding from herself. The result of this format makes the story unfold beautifully, as the reader and Sadie are tensely and simultaneously exposed to the truths of the central incident.”
– Jonathan Harford, Actor
“…an absolutely fantastic first novel!”
– Duncan Moron, JournalStone
“I could NOT stop reading SADIE…It’s an outstanding story.”
– James Grant, Author and “Two Lumps” Artist
“What turns a killer into a killer? A Stabbing for Sadie is the unique tale of murder from a side rarely visited – the side of the murderer. Sadie was never the most balanced girl, with a dark history of a horrible childhood and her daily demons which drive her to do things most of us would never think of doing. A Stabbing for Sadie is a must for thriller fans seeking a story of another perspective.”
– Midwest Book Review
“Friday takes you into the mind of a serial killer so thoroughly, you wonder why she didn’t kill more people. The character, that is, not the author … something tells me we don’t want to know the author’s body count. Five Stars!”Close
– Scott Sigler, NYT Best Selling Author of “Infected” and “Ancestor”
A Stabbing for Sadie
By: Wednesday Lee Friday
Late Point of Attack
The next morning I wake up on the smooth tile floor in the kitchen.
Even though the sun is coming up, it is cool to the touch, just like I remember.
And just like I remember, it hurts. It hurts to lay on the floor all night—it
hurts to hit the floor so hard. It hurts to know how much anyone wants me
there, sprawled out on the hard kitchen floor. It hurt because Tiamata made it
that way. But not today…not this day.
My hands are sticky; and as I look down I can see dark, molten
something splashed on the sunshine yellow tile. Deep, sticky and maroon, I
think it should seep into the cracks in the pattern but it doesn’t. Then I am
reminded of what the tall man in the blue work suit said years and years ago
when he put in the floor.
“Linoleum One Piece we call it. It doesn’t come in little squares like the
old tile did. It’ll be easy for your mommy to clean.”
‘My mommy doesn’t clean the floors, I do.” I said to him. He looked at
me almost like he didn’t believe me. I smiled my sweet smile at him, and he
Tiamata, huge and angry, loomed in the doorway. I knew It wouldn’t
attack while the tile man was here. It never attacked while anyone else was
here. It was clever that way…clever and deceitful. That’s why no one ever
came to help us.
“Sadie,” It said, laughing slightly…almost the way a person would,
“Don’t bother the nice man while he’s trying to work.”
“Oh, she’s fine ma’am. She’s not bothering—”
But I was already down the stairs and out of sight. I spent the day in the
basement, telling Pydely the Spider I’d take him with me if the tall man in the
blue work suit ever let me come to live at his house. Snidely and Pydely were
the two house spiders who lived in our basement. They were nice to talk to.
I was sure there were no Tiamatas at the tile man’s house; I could tell by
the way he smiled, like everything was safe and okay where he lived. I thought
maybe if I could make him smile again he’d want to take me to live at his
house…didn’t every house need a little girl after all?
Years later I would realize that I’d spend most of my life trying to find
some nice man to take me home with him; some nice man whose house didn’t
have any Tiamatas. It devastated me to realize what a huge cliché I had
Later, Tiamata did attack; slamming me down on the hard new tile that
was still covered with dirt and dust from the workmen. It was then I knew that
my sweet smile had done me no good. The tall man in the blue work suit had
gone home without me.
“Tell a total stranger I don’t clean this house! You think anyone else
ANYWHERE would ever put up with a stupid little asshole like you running
Did It know? Could It tell that I wanted to leave with the tile man? It
seemed to know everything. Again and again my head hit the floor, Tiamata
crushing my chest as it straddled itself above me. “Never tell ANYONE what
goes on in this house!” Then, eventually: darkness.
My head hurt today. Today would be a shaky day. I could already tell
that without even having to stand up. More and more these days, my hands
got shaky. Sometimes they’d shake all the way up to my eyes. That’s why I had
to stop driving the car—if I got shaky behind the wheel I could actually kill
someone. It’s a freaky thing about driving, one minute you’re listening to the
radio and thinking about sex, and the next, you’re causing a crash that ends up
with a complete stranger impaled on their steering column. And you can’t see
it coming…and there’s nothing you can do. Just imagine, idiots rubber necking
at the blood and carnage, pretending like they care, when they really don’t care
about anything but the chance to see free gore. Then, later there’d be one of
those tacky displays with flowers teddy bears, pictures and letters by the side of
the road to mark yet another terrible thing that I did. The cross without the
grave. Every time you drive by, you see it. That’s the sort of thing that makes
people hate you. Why did they use flowers anyway? Who ever decided that the
same gesture men on TV use to apologize to their fictitious girlfriends should
be used to mark the occasion of death? Mad girlfriend: flowers. Birthday:
flowers. Death: flowers. And if flowers mark death, why in the world do they
send them to people in hospitals, who are trying to get better? That’s what I
mean…none of it makes any sense.
I feel kind of shaky and queasy today. I have that sick feeling you get in
the bottom middle of your stomach like when you know something bad is
going to happen. I feel sweaty and heavy and tired, like the effort of lifting
myself off the ground is too much work. I shouldn’t feel tired though; after all,
I just woke up. I certainly didn’t want to hang around here all day. It seems
like there are a lot of people here.
Footsteps sound behind me, and I realize there are lights coming in the
window. I can barely see them blinking against the faded yellow paint around
the window over the sink. Blue, pink, blue, pink, it’s like someone is having a
rave party in the driveway. But that doesn’t make any sense. There would be
music, and kids, and it wouldn’t be taking place in the driveway at my parent’s
house. There are many things I could say about my parents; but for now lets
just say that they are the last people you’d ever see at a rave party. More
footsteps, then more still. Why are there so many people here? Men, it sounds
like, walking all around and talking quietly. I try to sit up to see who is there,
but a sharp pain goes through me and I pause for a minute. I try to brace
myself with my left hand, but it slips in something slippery on the floor and I
fall back again with a hard thump.
“My God. Miss…MISS! Are you alright?” an older man in a grey suit
and tie is walking toward me, fast. “Don’t. Don’t try to move, we have an
ambulance on the way.” He looked worried. And when I looked at his open
jacket, I saw the black and silver handle of a gun poke out.
An ambulance? Surely it’s not as serious as all that. I think I’m bleeding
maybe, but still…I can’t be paying an ambulance; I got a bill for that once
before, it was crazy. Over six hundred dollars just to drive me downtown. I
could have taken a limousine for that much; and the driver wouldn’t have asked
me stupid questions the whole way there.
The man in the suit kneeled down next to me. He seemed very like a
gentleman. He pulled my shirt up slightly to expose a small slice. He asks me
if I can hear him, and then tells me not to stand up.
“I’m okay,” I tell him, and hold out my hands so he can help me up. In
my right hand is the big knife from Dad’s cutlery rack. The one we got him for
his 51st birthday. That was the party where they made the wrong ice creamcake.
It should have been chocolate with chocolate chip ice cream, but actually
it was chocolate with mint chocolate chip. Dad didn’t care; in fact, he said the
cake was really good. But that didn’t stop the screaming, plates flying, and
swearing all through Dad’s party. No one got to feel happy at all that day. And
no one said anything about it. Just for a stupid cake.
The man in the suit looked at me kind of strange. Then I realized that
my hands were bloody. Not a bit of blood like from a paper cut, it literally
looked like I’d been finger painting in blood. But that was stupid, no one
would do that—it’s not like I’m Charlie Manson’s long lost daughter or
something. Heh heh heh, not anymore, at least.
“Why don’t you set the knife down, Miss?” He sounded really tense all
of a sudden, scared even. He reminded me of that cop on TV with the sexy
young partner. You know that one who was also the dad in that 80’s movie
with all the slutty dancing in it? That guy. It was rather perceptive on my part,
because he actually did turn out to be a cop. As I expected, he helped me up
very like a gentleman. Standing up, I felt sick and dizzy still.
When I went to wash my hands, which were really filthy, he turned all
mean on me. He even took out his handcuffs for some reason.
“You’re under arrest,” He said in a totally official tone,” for the murders
Murders? That sounds serious. I giggled to myself when he said that. It
sounded just like TV. Next thing, he’d probably make some wise-ass comment
that’s totally inappropriate, you know how they do? Like you’re watching and
you’re thinking “What the hell are they doing making snide remarks when
there’s a person lying dead right next to them?” And nobody is offended at the
wiseacre remarks and general lack of humility before death. After they do that,
they get all serious about trying to bust whoever did the murder, when really
they don’t care at all. I mean, what the hell kind of person behaves that way?
Anyway, The Gentleman Cop seems rather pleased to have found himself a
“murder”, for whatever that’s worth.
I didn’t even get to wash my hands before they put me in the car; the
mess is going to get all over the place. I thought that was kind of stupid since
they’re the ones that are going to have to clean it up. It’s hard to wash blood
out of pretty much anything, unless you have some kind of oxygen-based
cleaner. I saw those on TV; where that bearded guy is yelling and pouring red
wine on stuff. They look excellent.
They made me have to have my hands behind my back. If I’d felt
cleaner or prettier, I’d have smiled my sweet smile at them. Men were often
delighted by my sweet smile. The handcuffs hurt to have on, but I think they
might have put them on me too tight. As the Gentleman Cop was holding my
head so I didn’t bump it (which was really nice of him, I thought); another guy,
this one much younger, came out of the house. I wondered how many people
were in there, and thought that it was kind of rude of them not to introduce
themselves. I did grow up in that house after all.
“We gotta rush a bus on the other vic, he’s still breathing.” Said the
young cop. He was ugly in a high school bully sort of way—the kind of guy
you’d think would only be a security guard, not a real cop. Why did he want a
bus? Surely, getting more cops here to help out would take less time than
walking to catch the freaking city bus…
“Who, the husband?” asked Gentleman Cop.
“Yeah,” replied the Ugly Cop in a silky sort of voice. “Looks like we got
us a witness.”
“Y’hear that?” he asked, leaning toward the back seat with what I took
to be kind of an attitude “you left one alive.”
“Of course I left him alive!” I told him, “He’s my DAD. What kind of a
person do you think I am anyway?” he stared at me a moment, then shut the
car door, leaving me to count the diamond shapes in the grate that separates
the front and back seats in the police car. I guess that’s so I don’t reach
through and club one of them. Ha, that would be hilarious. He’s not really my
Dad, but that’s not any of these people’s business.
I saw that Mrs. McMurtry had come outside with her youngest boy to
see what was going on. I used to baby-sit the McMurtry boys when I was in
high school. There were three of them eventually…clever, rambunctious boys
who didn’t ever just want to sit and watch TV. This one had just been born
back then, and I was afraid to pick him up. You have to be really careful
picking up babies because their heads are too heavy for their necks. If you
don’t hold their little noggins just right the weight of the head can snap the
neck. Plus babies are really easy to suffocate, not that I would do that or
anything. They say you can just set a pillow on them and they’ll just stop
breathing without you having to do anything else. One minute, you’re
watching a baby, and the next, it isn’t breathing anymore.
When babies are born, they have big soft parts in their heads, like spaces
in their skull so their brain can get bigger as they learn more stuff and grow up
and everything. Not Casey’s though. My brother didn’t have a space in his
head when he was born. They had to put one in at the hospital. I remember
he had bandages on his head for a long time. But they were gone in time for
him to go to school. I think they were, weren’t they? I guess it’s a bit fuzzy
now. It was so sad seeing him with a big bandage on his head and everyone
asking “What’s wrong with that poor little boy?” And I told them, “Nothing.
The doctor fixed him and he’s all better.” Besides, it’s rude to ask people what
is wrong with them. Most people don’t really care anyway, they only ask so they
have more to dish when they tell other people about the poor, piteous boy
they saw with the big bandage on his head. I do remember feeling happy once
my brother was well, and happy to finally have a sister. When the doctors ask
me if I have any happy memories of childhood that is usually what I say. Casey
was “all better” now, the doctor had said so, and I told that to everyone who
asked. But that’s because I was too little to know any better. We never really
got better, none of us did.
The youngest McMurtry boy walked by and waved to me on his way to
the same high school I had gone to when he was born. He looked so tall and
grown up in his blue letter jacket with red sleeves in colored leather. I wanted
to wave back, but it was probably best that my bloody hands were still cuffed
tightly behind my back. Mrs. McMurtry caught my eye, and I smiled at her. I
hope she saw me. I wouldn’t want her to think I was ignoring her, I
mean…how rude! Shaking her head slowly, maybe even sadly, Mrs. McMurtry
went back inside.